i remember

so this night is one of the nights
when i remember what it felt like
to inhale and just forget about the pain
you left me with
and i remember how it felt after a while
when the softness reached my head
and embraced the burning anger
turning me wild

and even hours before i got to the glass
i felt so good cause i knew it was coming
no matter what
i could take the pain
and i remember how it felt
when i used to have the same sick mind
as my boon companion
i don’t feel like that anymore

and the rain comes pouring down
i am so soaked on the outside
but so dry on the inside
(say what you want i want to die)
i have damnation i want salvation
and i know but one place to find it
(say what you want i want to die)

and i remember what it felt like
with my hands locked on my back
when the softness reached my head
and embraced the burning anger
turning me wild

and even hours before i got to the glass
i felt so good cause i knew it was coming
no matter what
i could take the pain
and i remember how it felt
when i used to have the same sick mind
as my boon companion
i don’t feel like that anymore

and the rain comes pouring down
i am so soaked on the outside
but so dry on the inside
(say what you want i want to die)
i have damnation i want salvation
and i know but one place to find it
(say what you want i want to die)

and i remember what it felt like
with my hands locked on my back
and with the laughter ringing i desperately
searched the eyes of the one
who could lift the pain away
but she just looked away
and cemented my future

and i remember what it means to hide
for the fear of your life
and i remember the sound of something breaking
on the inside
and i remember putting on a smile

and tonight it feels like my feet don’t fit me
and my arms feel like they’re waste
they don’t belong to me
i just want to crack my skull
i want to break myself to pieces
put a bullet to my brain
over and over again
i want to kick myself down to the ground
i want to make it right
i want to make it right
i want to go there tonight